As it's been mentioned Lauren won't be having that much to do with the the blog for the next few weeks so I'm going it alone, which means I have lost my trusty proof reader. I do suffer with dyslexia (post coming about that soon) which means my spelling, grammar and formation of sentences can sometimes be not the best, but that is somthing we are all going to have to live with for a while, hope you all understand, and don't judge me to much :)
Somtimes you have to take a step back from your life and review it, find the good parts, the bad parts and the parts that need to be improved upon.
I've found my self doing this a lot lately, and I've learnt a lot about myself. In a few days I'll be moving away from all the comforts of home, but as these familiarities come to an end I've been seeing things in a new light and really reviewing my life.
One part of me is sad to be leaving but the other part of me is so happy to be going and leaving behind all the stupid things I've been putting up with for so long.
As I'm moving I'm not going to be seeing my 'friends' that often, now at first it was upsetting but lately things have changed, I'm sure whether it's me or them but it's just not the same anymore. I constantly feel like I'm having to prove myself to them, that I'm letting them down all the time and that's not how friends should make you feel, you shouldn't feel left out, not good enough and paranoid. Friendship is something that's going to change, its sadly become a bad part of my life that needs improvement, surround yourself with positive people that's what I'm planning to do in this new chapter of my life.
When reviewing my life I discovered how much my family means to me, they are such a good part of my life that I'm going to miss immensely when I move. I really struggle expressing my feelings and letting people know how I'm doing especially if I don't get asked, but my family are the one small group of people I can truly count on to make sure that I'm okay. Lately I've been going through some rough patches but my family have put up with me through thick and thin and that's something I'm not going to get anywhere else.
Looking at my life I can see how I've never really left my comfort zone and that's something that is bound to change. Going to a new place with new people is something I would never have pictured myself doing but it's happening and I'm stepping out of my little box. Many people don't believe in me and don't think I'm capable to go it alone, but I'm ready to prove them all wrong and show them all who I truly am.
Reviewing your life is sometimes hard to do, our judgement is clouded by the things that are familiar. Sometime to need that bolt of change to actually be able to see everything that is right and wrong in our lives, find the things that have to go and the things you'll want to treasure forever!
You can't start the next chapter in your life, if you keep re-reading the last one! As one of my favourite authors Dr Seuss said "kid you'll move mountains, today is your day, your mountain is waiting so get on your way"
Until next time, see you later alligator,
-Kate.
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