You're so skinny - style

       

How are you so skinny? 

Now this is question I've grown up hearing from family, friends and even doctors when I was a child they would jokingly ask if I was getting fed at home (which I didn't find very funny)

I'm 18 years old and I still look in the mirror wishing I could have a bit more shape to me instead of being a long string of nothing (which I have been called many times), being 18 you would think I would have some curves by now, and I'm not saying I don't but what I do have is hardly noticeable.

Now I have in no way any eating disorder, I eat tones I literally have chocolate for breakfast. Now the reason that I am so thin is simply metabolism, I have high metabolism which means my body breaks down calories and fat faster than normal. I can eat the same amount as all my friends sometime even more, but because of my metabolism it's very difficult for me to gain weight.

Now most people would say stop complaining and I don't know how many times I've heard "oh I'd love to be as small as you" but it isn't always that great. 

Shopping for clothes is always a pain, finding smaller sizes can be quite difficult and as I'm not really that short (I'm 5ft5) I can never shop in the petite section, as the clothes never have the length. Also eating out in restaurants can really knock your self esteem, when you have a full plate of food and all you get "are you really going to eat all that?" "Is there enough room in you for all that food" "you must be really hungry", and then the shocked look you get when you finish it all.

 "I would love to be as skinny as you" "look how small and cute you are" "you are sooo thin" "it's amazing how much you eat, and you're so small" now these may be seen to many as compliments, but as a thin girl these are the type of things you hate to hear, these type of things make you feel guilty about how you look and it's the fact you can't do nothing about it, is the thing that makes it hard! Just because I'm thin doesn't mean I have body confidence, it's the exact opposite I rather hide my body and size away instead of hearing all these comments, even if they are trying to be nice. 

One of the most frustrating thing I get it is "you're so skinny" now you many look at that and not see a problem, but would you go up to a bigger person and say "you're so fat" NO you wouldn't, so what's the difference!

There are things I hate about my body because of my size, like my hands my fingers are so long and skinny it makes it impossible to wear most rings as they just look silly, also I hate my shoulders as they are so boney which makes me really self conscious when wearing strappy tops.

Now even though I have mostly complained about being thin, there are definite positive points to being thin as well, like the fact you can eat the big bars of dairy milk chocolate and not have to feel guilty. Being able to buy an outfit for an event in the future and not worry about not being able to fit into it. Being able to sit anywhere. You can get picked up to reach high places, or this even comes into play at festivals when you can't see. You can run and jump and not get pain in your boobs, because if your the same type of thin as me then you've hardly got any. Also being able to fit into small places is always a perk, epically when playing hide and seek as a child ( who am I kidding I would still play if someone asked me to)

Even though I think I would be nice to have a bit more of a shape to me, I wouldn't change for the world because it's me, and I'm happy being me and if the world has an issue with that then it's their problem. You shouldn't judge anyone on their looks epically their size, as long as their happy you should be too! Take into consideration other people's feelings to, you don't know the effect of what you say has on them.

Until next time, see you later alligator 

- Kate.